Mercy

Growing up you heard the chant

“Sticks and Stones may break my bones but Words will never hurt me”

I used that phrase a lot when I was younger, however, the truth of the matter is that words will hurt…words can cut you down…words can crush a Spirit.

God has given me the gift of mercy, which comes with things I need to be aware of (click here for information on the motivational gift of mercy).  The biggest struggle I have is when someone hurts I hurt…which isn’t a problem, unless I pick up the anger towards those that made others hurt.

It’s hard…some times I’m so upset my husband has to remind me that it’s not my fight…which usually helps me to come to terms with not being mad and asking God to forgive me while praying over the situation.

Lately, though, I have been struggling with feelings of being hurt…of hurting other people (I am such a people pleaser)…of being under appreciated…lack of decisiveness (or being firm on those things I did decide on)…of second guessing my callings…was I really called to do what I’m doing or was I just having a difficult time of saying “No”?  I guess the only way to figure that out is to approach the throne of God and speak with him…spend time with him to get a clear direction.

That’s where I’m at…in case you wanted to know!

cmannabelle

Oh my!

It’s been such a long time since I’ve posted!   I bet you are wondering where I’ve been…well, maybe not, but just humor me!

In December, we decided to change from DSL to Cable internet.  Little did we know how long that would take to happen!  We finally got the cable installed and up and running on Feb. 14th!

Can you imagine being without the internet for that long?  Yeah, I can’t…I hit the coffee shop many times in the apst 2 months just so I could keep up!

However, that lack of internet has allowed me to turn off the computer without thinking twice about it…a newfound freedom, so to speak.

I did miss you all and keeping up…

During my time without the internet, I have played more games of solitare than I care to admit and started a new craft…book thongs!  :D

cmannabelle